Okay, so it seems i’m in a bit of an emotional place at the moment. I have taken some time off work to have some ‘me’ time. Although it is more like ‘us’ time, it is ALWAYS ‘us’ time lately.
My behaviour has become very erratic lately, a lot more than usual. I tend to find myself taking a step back and asking myself why? Why did I just do that? A lot more than usual.
My behaviour isn’t a cause for concern, not to the public anyway. But I seem to be on a path of self destruction at the moment. Shouting at my boss, being rude to my colleagues and family, walking out of work and even throwing food out of my window – yes, throwing food out of the window. I know it may sound silly, but often I don’t even realise I’m doing it. My flatmate was the one who told me about the food, I don’t have much recollection of this.
Anyway, I have something I’m a bit concerned about I hope someone would be able to help me with. I’m going to see my doctor next week but before I get the whole ‘hallucinations’ talk I hope someone has some helpful advice.
For as long as I can remember I have been able to see ‘noise’. As in, when I’m in a dark room and there is a sudden noise I see a sharp, bright flash of light simultaneously. Lately it is happening a lot, a lot more than I can ever remember and before I am fobbed off by my doctor I wondered does anyone else experience this? What is it? Should I be concerned.
As a ‘sufferer’ of DID I hardly have a good mental health track record, that is why I wantd to ask. Is there anyone else out there who knows what this could be?